End of May Love Letters From Kelsee

Trav
I couldn't sleep tonight so I decided that I would do some HW so that I would have less tomorrow. The lesson that I did was on forgiveness and sacrifice. It really hit me tonight. I realized a lot of things. I just wanted to write to you and thank you for what you are doing now. I know the sacrifices you are doing working in ALT. I can't tell you how thankful I am for you. I think you are really the most amazing person I know. The fact that you would move to a new city far away from home and work for the summer by yourself so that we can have a future means more then I can even write. I really started to tear thinking about you and everything you are doing for me. I wish I could do something in return. I sit here and ache for you and I can't imagine how it is for you there. I know that you are the one I am supposed to marry and that it is the right time. I remember the first time I met you I didn't know what it was about you but everything felt different. Then when I went to your concert I couldn't stop watching you. I even started to smile for no reason when you were singing. I was scared to come talk to you cause I didn't know what you thought of me. When you came back to me I wanted to get to know you more. When we went to your house I have never been so relaxed with someone. I was able to be myself and not even worry about anyone. I don't know what it was about you but I wanted to get to know you more. As we sat talking while everyone was watching a movie of course I fell in love with your voice but also I started to fall in love with your spirit. There was something about you that I wanted to know more about. The way you would pay attention to everything I would say and how opened you were to everything I would say. I didn't feel like you were acting and that everything you said was just perfect to me. I remember that weird guy walking in and asking you questions and you trying to be nice but at the same time trying to get him to leave. It was so cute how nice you were to him even tho you didn't want anything to do with him. I watched how you would smile at me or give me a look like " what the heck" while he talked. I would giggle but not loud enough for you to hear. I was scared for you to hear my laugh cause I know it is different. As we talked and got to know each other I realized that you were not just another hook up. You were something more and I wanted to see. We went back downstairs as they were finishing a movie. We cuddled and I remember kissing you but nothing in my mind was telling me to. I really still to think day don't know where that came from. After I did that In my head I knew you were going to peace out. After you kinda laughed it made me feel better. I remember falling asleep as if we were one. There was a time I woke up and could not breath because I was stuck in between the love sac and your face. I didn't want to wake you so I tried to move my lips so that I could find a peep of air. After a choice dream that I will not be writing about I remember you trying to wake me up sweetly. I didn't want to move and was so tired. The next thing I remember is waking up to you throwing me over your shoulders. I was so mad you had done this cause all I thought is were over. I am going to be so heavy to carry and he is going to never want to see me again. That night I went home and had a dream about me marrying you. I couldn't admit this till now since we are engaged. But you were the boy that I walked out of the temple with. OH and NO I did not dream about our wedding night while we were at your house! Anyways I woke up and Lauren and her cousin told me what I had dreamed about and done. I was so embarrassed and knew that we were donezo.. I decided I should call myself and maybe explain what had happened and that I was sleeping and didn't remember anything. You didn't answer and I remember telling them okay he does not even want to talk to me. Then you called I didn't know if I should pick up. I decided to and you talked as if nothing had happened. I felt better and went on with the convo. After you laughing a bit and me trying to not make it sound as bad as it was we decided to do something soon. Okay my fingers hurt today I have typed at least 3 novels. Anyways I just thought I would tell you about the first time we really got to know each other and give you the view from my side. I love you and there's more of this story tomorrow night. I love you so much and hope you have a great day!!!
ohh Ps: I forgot to write about how the whole time I was with you I thought you were the most handsome boy ever. I put you above the real slim shady and you know that it's saying a lot. Now I don't think Marshal Mathers can do to me what you do =)

So you are sleeping and I wish I was but I slept all day and so I am not tired tonight. I just wanted to write to you again so that you can wake up to something cute. I was thinking tonight about the time we were on Old Main Hill. I think this was our first real date jsut the two of us. I remember I was so scared cause I didn't know what to wear. I looked through everything and tried to pick out something that was not too much but still looked cute. When you knocked on the door my whole body got the chills. I gave you a hug and we got into your car. We went to dinner and listened to your friend play the guitar. It was really cute just being there with you and trying not to eat since I get embarrassed when people see me eat. You were so cute talking and telling me about you. After we left I didn't want the night to end but didn't know what you wanted. We decided to go to the institute dance and see what was happening. I remember the look on your face when we saw everybody there. I was like umm okay this could be interesting. We danced with random ppl and let lose. I remember I was laughing so hard at you and then "Im already there" by lone star came on. I had really always loved that song so when It played I got the chills again. We danced cute then we danced crazy while everyone was trying to get to know the person they were dancing with. You commented and said wow I'm glad I don't have to do that tonight. After we left you decided to give me a tour of campus. Well it didn't go long cause we ended up at old main. I remember I wanted you to take off your shoes and dance with me but you didn't want to at first. Then you decided that you would and it made the night fun rolling around and being weirdos. After a bit we laid there looking at the stars and talking. I remember I told you everything and even cried a little. I had never opened up to someone like I have you. I told you about my dad and how much of an effect it had on me. I was so scared you were going to judge me and that it was the end of us. After you told me that you understood and held me while I cried I realized that there was more to you then just another boy. We talked for awhile and told each other some deep things. That night was really one that I will never forget. I had a feeling that after that night my boy life was done with. I didn't want to think that but I knew that it was changing. The way you listened and held me when I was crying really changed me. I can't tell you how many times I think about that night. I shared with you somethings that I have never told anyone. We talked for awhile and realized what time it was. After that we decided that we would walk back to your house. I remember holding hands and thinking my hands fit perfectly in between your. I think they knew that they better get used to them cause those are the old hands besides Coltys that I have held. Trav you are really the best thing that has ever been mine. I pray every night for you and thank the lord for bringing me to you. I think that you came into my life when I needed you most. I think about where I was and what I was going through and you have changed me so much. I just want you to know how much I love you and how thankful I am you are a worthy priesthood holder. I have always made sure my children and me will have someone with the priesthood in our home. I know that you are the one I am supposed to marry and on August 12 I will be sealed to the love of my life.
I love you!!!!!!

Dreaming

Chel i just woke up with such a strong thought of how much I love you. I love your genuinely happy eyes. After all that you've gone through.... You are the truly happiest girl I know. You are happy with yourself, so cheerful and playful and full of life. Even when you were sick you were still so happy. I admire you. You have an incredible effect on mr. I've never been so happy and felt so not alone in my whole life. It's a deeper love than I've ever felt and it's literally makin me be better and do things better without me even thinking about it. During my prayers tonight I realized I've been doing things differently lately, thugs I'd tried to improve since I was a kid and as I prayed I recieved that it's you. The addition of your happy spirit to my life and the genuine love I have for you is purifying me and causing me to do things better and be better without even thinking about it. Did I mention how much I love those happy eyes? You make friends with everyone- people naturally love you and want to be around you. I'm so impressed with you and so are my family and friends .

Sorry I beat you to the blog u claimed.... But I couldn't resist :)

Bright Eyes

Now I know

Tonight you held me, looked right into my eyes and told me smiling that this is it....that i'm it......that i'm going to be your husband and father of your children.....that you were done looking and that you'd found out everything about me you needed to know in your heart.....that you were going to be Chelsea Chambers.....I gave you a big hug, wiped your happy tears and just let it sink in.

That moment was the most special and most important moment to me in my life so far.

I've known since our drive home after our first visit in Boise. As we crested the hill into Bear River county we were holding hands listening to one of your favorite songs, "O Holy Night," when I felt the spirit overwhelm me. I looked at you and without thinking asked the lord in my heart if you were her. I felt such a powerful warmth and conviction that I teared up and just looked at you and said, "I don't know where or when....but i'm going to marry you." It was in the top few strongest promptings I've ever had in my life. That was literally only after a few weeks of knowing you.

So to finally know, that you know too, is wonderful and special to me.

I'll hold tonight dear in my heart forever. I'll never take that love for granted.

I am a happy man. I think I owe Grandpa and Grandma Vaughn J a big favor for telling you to figure it out!

Also I'd like to thank my official sponsors Kallie, Lance, Tylon, Ella, my producers Ginny, Katie and Caley, mentors Emily and Diana, co writers Laura and David, and anyone else I forgot that supported me throughout this process and kept telling me not to give up. haha you are laughing out loud right now. nice. I'm glad we have the same humor. I think my next post is going to be about all the awesome things I love about you.

We're going to Hockinson next weekend!!!!!! I can't believe it! And Dew Tour this weekend, Boise in two weekends, and Vegas, LA, Cruise, and Ensenada in a month!

ps: my secret was I told Ginny it would be soooo coool, soooo epic, soooo memorable and romantic if I proposed on the cruise in Ensenada....but showing how clueless I am....she told me no bueno....... so it won't happen on the cruise hahaha but it'll remain a surprise though!!!!! ....it just takes all the fun out of it that you're going to tell me when it's time.....then you won't be surprised!!! But that's better than getting a NO. hahaha

ps2: Did you notice how the music was PERFECT when we had the moment tonight? All the sudden my hip-hop turned to an amazing sweeping symphony made just for us.

Did I never tell you? Heavenly Father is my DJ. It's included with the Chambers package.

it takes time!

I think it's been forever since I have been on here and wrote something. I have been dating Trav for about 3 months now and it has been some of the greatest experiences of my life. We have had so much fun learning new things about each other and playing. I have been really sick and have had lots of health problems. I really don't think i could have kept going if it wasn't for Trav. He has been so amazing. I really do love this boy and have learned a lot about myself from him. One of the things that sticks out is one day I was so sick and couldn't get out of bed. He came over in between classes and just laid there to comfort me while I slept. I know that it wasn't that big of but to me it ment the world. I now know how much he cares for me and what he will sacrifice for me. I have watched him and learned that what he has become is what I want in a husband. He is so much fun I love just watching him cause it makes me laugh so hard. My nieces and nephews love him so much. They fight over who Travis like the most. I love to see him with them cause those kids mean the world to me and seeing him treat them the way he does makes me love him more. We are going to meet him parents next month and I am very nervous but really excited to meet the parents who have raised such an amazing son.

We have learned that communication is something that we still need to work on. It's kinda funny cause most couples get annoyed of each other when there together but we get annoyed when were not together. We have such a special connection that when were together nothing goes wrong. I really love how much he loves the church. He is teaching me so much about the church. We are taking institute together and I think it is a really good thing that were growing in every way. My favorite date with him tho was when we went snowshoeing and rode a for wheeler around. I love how he loves to drive crazy and just have fun. Nothing has to be serious we just get to have fun and do what we want. I am falling in love with this boy and I'm excited to see where it goes.

Merry CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!

LUV U :)

You Make it Easyyyyyyy

Chelsea Featherstone December 12 at 9:45pm Report
thank you so much for tonight. i feel like every time we get together we have such amazing talks about everything. i want you to know how grateful i am for you and how happy i have been since we have been dating. you are so sweet to me and i want you to know how much i appreciate it. its taking me a little getting used too being lucky enough to have you. but really you are what i dream about what i want in a man. i am really mad that my phone is broken so i dont get to talk to you but i cant wait to see you tomorrow. you make me so happy about life and everything. i miss you lots already. im heading to my cousins and wont have internet or anything but ill message you tomorrow and see what and where i can see you. i want to get the most out of this week before i leave. miss you lots dear!
chels

Travis Chambers December 13 at 1:48am
I'm grateful you are grateful for me :) At every single crossroads, we seem to take the turn in the same direction. We're healing each other's scars, do you notice that? Sorry for the times I get that look, like distant; retreating. It's because I care deeply about you but don't want to overwhelm you. But if you feel the same way I do, and tell me you do, I shouldn't hold back huh?

Tomorrow I have a campus tour 10:15-1130 and then am studying all day until my math study 7-9. I'll hit the gym too, lets do that if you feel healthy? I was SO proud of you eating so well tonight. THANK YOU.

Read this carefully. It's scary but this is what I'm deciding to feel about us. From now on i'm going to do my best not to protect myself because.... read this carefully...... :) it's a little deeeeep :)

The risk of not falling in love with you far outweighs the risk of falling and then getting hurt.

I'll risk it ;) I'll spend time with you tomorrow as much as you can give :)